For about 5 months now, I’ve been trying to settle into my sweet spot. Well, technically I’ve been trying to “find” my sweet spot. Here’s the scoop. Several months ago, I stepped out onto the water. You know, I pulled a Peter. Let me refresh your memory. Matthew 14:22-29 says,
“Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”
“Come,” he said.
Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus.
Back in June, I committed to that process. I didn’t just dive into the water. I kid you not, I stuck one toe in at a time and listened and walked. It’s funny how we commit to things Our Heavenly Father tells us, yet we have NO CLUE what our “yes” means at that moment. Am I the only one who finds myself in that place? I honestly think He doesn’t disclose everything to us because if He did, let’s be real—most of us would probably dip off the scene. We would say, “…..but I’m not qualified…I don’t have enough experience… I’m not smart enough… I don’t come from a family who does that….yada yada. I don’t blame Him because I probably would come up with a few excuses of why I’m not the right candidate. Smh…However, as He matures me, I say yes by trusting His heart for me.
Over the past 5 months, my steps have shifted between strong strides and timid tiptoes. I have days when I’m all the way in, days when I’m a little more squeamish, and days where I am purely frustrated that I haven’t sunk into my new sweet spot. Ya know, when you get a rhythm going for your life and it almost feels like you’re on cruise control? One morning when I was speaking to Him, He explained why I was feeling that way. Maybe me sharing our conversation will help you navigate this season of your life.
He brought me back to what my running trainer has been telling me. Recently, I’ve been training on the treadmill at pretty high speeds. I mean, speeds that there is no way I have the stamina to maintain past 2 minutes. One of the things my trainer tells me to do is take a deep breath and push through the tempo speed. Then, my trainer will tell me to lower the speed a few notches and push out at this pace for about 5 minutes. Yall……can we pause for the cause!!??? The 5-minute pace my trainer gives me is still out of my realm! I have to fight soooo hard to even “attempt” to stay in the game! I mean the speed is still waaaay too fast for me. I can hardly breathe trying to transition between the 2 speeds! My trainer’s words are always the same, “I know this is uncomfortable. Don’t give up. Adjust your mechanics and your body will fall into a new rhythm because you already pushed yourself in the 2-minute tempo run. So the new “lower” speed (yea right!) will naturally begin to feel easier for you.”
It’s the same with Our Heavenly Father. In this season, He’s set me on a new trajectory….leveled me up in a sense. (Thanks Ciara! Lol) In order for me to reach my new “sweet spot” I have to push waaay past the familiar and then rescind a few notches lower. Keep in mind that the second level I rescind to is still going to feel uncomfortable for a while until my body adjusts. I hope this is making sense.
What He was saying is, you are living on a new plane now. It’s not going to feel comfortable. Your frustration comes from you not “feeling” like you’ve settled into your sweet spot. Be patient on this new level because your body, spirit, and soul will adjust to your new “sweet spot.” Remember, take a deep breath and adjust your mechanics. The old “sweet spot” is gone. When you leveled up, you left the familiarity of the old. Think about it. A butterfly never transitions back into a caterpillar. Does it? Get used to your wings honey and fly! This….is your new normal.
In peace,
His Daughter
Living in HD 