…but God I Still Have Questions…

The past two days have taught me a valuable lesson: just because your mouth isn’t moving, doesn’t mean you are silent. What!? I know right! Read it again. Just because your mouth isn’t moving, doesn’t mean you are silent. Let me explain.

For some time now, I’ve come to my Daddy God in the spirit of surrender. Father, not my will, but yours. I desire what you want for me. Yet, all the while, my thoughts were speaking louder than my words! I went to Him with a crap ton of questions last night simply because I didn’t understand a lot that was happening. I awoke the next morning doing the same thing. I struggled to verbalize my inquiries and feelings and tried to allow my tears and groanings to do the talking instead. I wondered how I could be positioned so humbly and still not have an understanding.

At that moment, I realized that although my mouth had been silent, my mind had not. Humbling yourself requires you not necessarily understanding everything at that moment. As He showed me my “thoughts’ were speaking louder than my mouth, my only response was to silence ALL of me. “Daughter, just because words are not coming out of your mouth doesn’t mean I can’t hear you.” Hebrews 4:13 says, “Nothing in all creation is hidden from God’s sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account.”

What I’m trying to say is, if you are currently seeking answers from Our Father, you can’t just be silent and say you’ve humbled yourself in a position to gain understanding, if you are still allowing your thoughts to do the talking within you. Listen, there are going to be things we don’t understand right away, but this is what I do know. For years I did life my way, and I saw where that got me: NOWHERE FAST.

I’m in a stage in my life where I’m betting it all on Jesus! I don’t have anything to lose! If you’re gonna risk it ALL, why not do it for the one who holds the galaxies and the universe in His hands? Why not do it for the one who makes sure the ocean doesn’t go past the boundary of the sand? Why not do it for the one who sets the moon in the sky at night, and illuminates the darkness at the perfect time for the “day” to begin? I mean seriously, do you know anyone who can do it like The King Himself!?? I’ll wait……..and the G.O.A.T. Lifetime Award goes to…….the Messiah!!

Do I understand everything? I don’t. Do I get frustrated? I do. Especially when other people are involved. However, when He calmly quiets me with His love in the middle of me “throwing a fit,” I silence my mouth and my thoughts, and I remember that He is the ULTIMATE man of His Word! He CANNOT FAIL! He WILL NOT FAIL! Regardless of if I understand everything at this moment or not, I choose to risk it all for Him, knowing that I can always depend on Him coming through in the clutch no matter what! We have to die to our flesh to get where He wants us to be. Afterall, this is all His plan. What do we look like trying to run it?? I know you’re used to knowing everything and being in control, but God is the ultimate type A…..who gon’ check Him boo?? Lol! if you want Him to win, and trust me you do, you have to yield. He has sooo much goodness planned for us!

Here’s my encouragement to you:

1. Acknowledge that you don’t understand it all. You won’t! Isaiah 55:8 says, “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord.” 
2. Silence your mouth and thoughts.
3. Ask Him for understanding.
4. Then, press forward knowing that He wants to get the glory from your life. Romans 8:28 says, “And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.” Let Him get the glory from your life. Not you!

Let Him do it the way He has purposed, and trust that when the time is right He’ll give you the deets. I mean do parents give in-depth explanations to their 2-year-olds? Uhhhh….I know my mama told me what she saw fit to tell me at that age because she “knew” waaaayy more than my little 2-year old self who probably went in a tizzy when I didn’t get my way. Chiiiiiilllleeee….be humble. Sit down. Your Father LOVES you far too much than to set you up for the okie doke. He has your back! Swallow your pride and push through. Everything is ok.

In peace,

His Daughter